Chris and kez my love,
I know that you may not want to read this because it may will make you sad but it may ease my heartache.
Lately I have missed you even more than usual, and I therefore felt compelled to express that in someway.
It is so painful to think of all the many milestones that have happened for both of you during our time apart.
I am so very, very sorry for the reasons that we are living apart; I have really let you down darling. I know that if I had have been able to have expressed myself in a better way back then, then maybe things could well have turned out so differently. My love, I live with my feelings of guilt and regret every day.
I can only hope that the paper work and all the stuff turn out well.
To be reunited with you really would be all my dreams come true, but I know that we would have to waiting.
I am so blessed and proud to be your mommy.
I do hope that you feel my love for you. You are with me every moment, and I hope that you know that even though I am not able do see you, I carry you in my heart always.
I would give absolutely anything to have my little family back again though, and there is nothing in the world that I want more than to be back where I belong with you.
My love…
If you ever miss mommy, watch this video which mommy made and dedicate for you so you know how much mommy wanted you and love you. I know this video is nothing compares than our longed but at least you can see mommy even just for short time.
With all my heart
Mommy
